Before Sunrise

Y: tell me there is hope for ambition-less people like me.

X: what you talking abt??Y!!

Y: I feel all hope is not lost.
I didn’t mean that in an offensive manner :)

X: sweetheart! there was no offense taken!

Y: heh :)
that 'Y!!!' was almost like X giving me a earful for my nonsense
reminded me of the times when i have fucked up
n you have managed to set me straight

X: it's just that you relegated yourself to one with no ambitions...

Y: yeah..to be honest

X: I know that's not true

Y: what do you call someone who only wants to earn some money
so that she can buys books, camera lenses, travel, watch movies
there is nothing else..
i shoot film too. i must show you some pics when i scan them

X: what do you call a lady who does all the things you do?
highly date-able!
are you still single?

Y: hahaha

X: :D

Y: yes. i'm very much single.

X: awww...(blushes)

Y: do I look like I’ll have a body double? :P

X: oh man!
you just killed that spark of romance!!
Here's a love story that suffered a "pun"ishing end,
even before it began
:'(

Y: hehe
sorry sorry i was just being myself.
now ill get back...
on track

X: i worry abt you...
i do...

Y: heh. why do you worry about me X?

X: it's just that when you were arnd here...

Y: yeah...

X: i could walk down to your place from my match box
and I'm not able to do that now

Y: yeah...

X: especially when you say things like
"I have no ambitions in life"
Y!!

Y: but X, unfortunately that is the truth
now...like everytime i have to look for a job
they ask me to fill up these forms about
short term n long term career goals
and i never have answers
then i sit back n ponder and think what is it that i want
and i realise that i come up with the same answer everytime.
i just want to make some money not great money or anything..
i just want to be able to afford books, travel etc..an i dont think
i have any issues living paycheck to paycheck

X: mail me those forms,
I try my hand at fiction often enough
:)

Y:hehe! will do will do
:)

X: but baby, we all live paycheck to paycheck,
Doesn’t matter how much you earn,
You always wait for the next paycheck,
Each of us have our share of mortgages
:)

Y: yeah...but there's no other ambition..
i mean, like you knew you wanted to become a writer
i don't even have any ambition like that
any job will do.
just pay me so that i can pay the rent,
bills, buy books..yeah im ok

X: ok firstly, I’m a poor journo, not a noted columnist,
Nor have I written any bestseller

Y: hehe yes yes

X: and writing also just abt helps me get
thro the monthly expenses...
a couple of expensive dates,
and I look for a freelance assignment :)

Y: but aren't you passionate about it?
i mean..you like the creative field don't you? :)
i don't think i even know what i want to do... :(
actually i know. i don't know what i want..
so if i don't know what i want, how do i convince
companies about what i want to do in life

X: :)
“I love my job and i cannot think of anything better that
i could do with my life right now”...

Y: there! i'm soo happy for you. it's good to have that focus

X: that's what i said at all my interviews...
honestly i was not too sure abt it...

Y: :)

X: but I said it like i believed it
:)

Y: hehe

X: it's like this Y...
let's say you do wanna go out with this
girl, or guy to be politically correct
:)

Y: uhuh...
and
?

X: you may not really be sure about
what is it that draws you to them,
but then if you want to ask 'em out...
you got to say everything like
you believe it right??
your job is also like a relationship

Y: heh true

X: you'll never be sure about it...

Y: yeah...

X: but then you may fall in love with it eventually

Y: yeah it is a true

X: or you may choose to walk out of it if
something better comes your way...

Y: yeah...

X: but then there's that chance right?

Y: hmm..i see what you mean

X: of you falling madly in love with your job?

Y: yeah..

X: so is it not worth risking a couple of boring dates
for a rewarding relationship?
:)
man! I'm uploading this
on my blog right away...
:P
Of course, no names revealed!

Y: hahaha
link me...when you're done :)

X: once you grant me permission, of course!

Y: of course :D
consider it granted.
:)

many a mile separates them,
but that is what brings them closer - the distance,
They continue to live happily ever after...
well almost...with a few abberations... quite a few actually...
Each of them enjoy their share of glorious uncertainties,
but pray that the other is doing very well,
Every night or day,
with 12-hour time zones between them,
they continue to have blissful,
random conversations with each other,
Their Dangling Conversations.